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Underbelly: 10 Things - Wandering

Underbelly: 10 Things - Wandering
By Wendy Kelly • Issue #16 • View online
#83 in a series of wild and precious things to keep you on your path.

1.TWIL This week I wandered. This week I wandered, became aware of my wandering and accepted my wandering as not only “okay” but welcome. I allowed my wandering. Perhaps you sometimes wander as well?
This may become a recurring theme, but the lesson occurred during a tai chi meeting.
In some ways, I feel like it’s an initiation into elder-ing, into a kind of learning that can only happen after lots of softening that comes from living. From listening to life. A kind of allowing that does not really include permission as much as letting, observing and noticing.
So: this week found me understanding that I am learning Polyvagal theory because it’s my first step on my path to becoming a Somatic Experiencing Practitioner, because the grounding that happens from helping us settle our nervous system helps us access more calm, more deep learning, more awareness.
And, yes, the vagus nerve system is the “wandering nerve” Vagus = Wandering.
“Why aren’t you in school? I see you every day wandering around.“
"Oh, they don’t miss me,” she said. “I’m antisocial, they say. I don’t mix. It’s so strange. I’m very social indeed. It all depends on what you mean by social, doesn’t it? Social to me means talking to you about things like this.” She rattled some chestnuts that had fallen off the tree in the front yard. “Or talking about how strange the world is. Being with people is nice. But I don’t think it’s social to get a bunch of people together and then not let them talk, do you? An hour of TV class, an hour of basketball or baseball or running, another hour of transcription history or painting pictures, and more sports, but do you know, we never ask questions, or at least most don’t; they just run the answers at you, bing, bing, bing, and us sitting there for four more hours of film-teacher. That’s not social to me at all. It’s a lot of funnels and lot of water poured down the spout and out the bottom, and them telling us it’s wine when it’s not. They run us so ragged by the end of the day we can’t do anything but go to bed or head for a Fun Park to bully people around, break windowpanes in the Window Smasher place or wreck cars in the Car Wrecker place with the big steel ball. Or go out in the cars and race on the streets, trying to see how close you can get to lampposts, playing ‘chicken’ and ‘knock hubcaps.’ I guess I’m everything they say I am, all right. I haven’t any friends. That’s supposed to prove I’m abnormal. But everyone I know is either shouting or dancing around like wild or beating up one another. Do you notice how people hurt each other nowadays?”
― Ray Bradbury, Fahrenheit 451
This week came with lots of tiny epiphanies. Unfoldings — understandings that, yes, actually, that very strong silent internal knowing voice has my back, actually.
A writing teacher I adore — the Mama of Dada, Sheri-D Wilson — taught me a writing prompt, an exercise, that I will share with you:
Make space.
Turn off the world.
Tune into yourself.
Open your writing book or file.
Write the words "No Judgement,”
and, “First Thought - Best Thought
on the top of the page.”
Now, think of one major turning-point in your life -
one major ‘Epiphany,’ in your life - after which,
nothing was ever the same again.
On the top of the page - write down a working title
Boom! You’re on your way.“ — Sheri-D Wilson
Please, click on the link and read her entire explanation. The prompt is powerful — start with an epiphany moment in your life. A moment where everything changed. And from there, if you are in a calm state of allowing, of observing, of noticing, write what you see, hear, feel, taste. Write your sense of gravity, or not.
Sitting with that piece and learning from it, noticing what you wrote, can be powerful.
As a person who enjoys both not disturbing the status quo and often being horrified by what that quo asks of us — I am often confused as to how to proceed. To put it mildly. I am not sure if you ever find yourself in that place — where, to do what you know to be ethically, morally, authentically correct is also to do what no one else is doing.
To wander when everyone else, seemingly, is walking in a straight line.
What I have been noticing is that these moments are both entirely human and a little unnerving.
The small quest this week is to simply stand, breathe deeply, and, as you exhale, stare straight to the horizon, allowing your breath to leave your body. Simply be.
5. Level-UP / Go Deeper
I thinking bringing in compassion makes sense here. This week is about knowing that where you are, wherever that is, is where you are supposed to be. The story isn’t finished, the plot is still being revealed to you. You have everything you need.
6. Video:
7. Advocacy:
As my life unfolds, I notice that I am being called to offer a practice that seems to fall alongside counseling. I am calling it “Advocacy” at the moment. If you would like to learn more, contact me and I would love to share with you what I am learning.
8. Poem:
The Barcelona Bakery of No Return by Sheri-D WIlson | Sheri-D Wilson D.Litt, C.M.
9. Hero:
About the Mama of Dada | Sheri-D Wilson D.Litt, C.M.
10. Connect:
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