This week I contemplated agency again. The way God works in my life, or — more accurately, my blurry interpretation of how He works :) feels a lot like being trained or raised up by a perfect power with an absurd and profound sense of humor.
One of my husband’s favorite quotes is from Cat’s Cradle by Kurt Vonnegut:
An example from the week before last week set this week up perfectly for me:
I washed and brushed our dear Luna, all 77 pounds of her, in preparation for our camping trip. She had to sit between two largish young adults on the back seat of our truck, so I felt the least I could do was wash her.
As soon as we set up camp, she found a lovely pile of s*** and rolled in it until she was this otherworldly green/black color in spots.
So. Here is where the lesson started for me:
The young adult kids (3 in total) strongly advised throwing Luna into the nearby pond.
- This makes sense on the surface. It sounds rational, reasonable. The obvious “adult” mature thing to do.
- Luna is afraid of water — very afraid.
- There seems to be no alternative. We are tired, the idea was to go to a local music festival, and it’s getting late.
- And, honestly, a dog covered in s*** is kind of funny. No one is going to die and it’s great fodder for lesson learning — for when things are more serious.
I had no idea what I was going to do, but I knew that the next right thing was to stay behind with Luna and wait. She was happy as a pig in s*** :) so there was really no problem there. She’s a dog. I made a fire, sat beside it for awhile, still no idea how to clean her…and finally went to sleep. She made a little nest beside me and we slept great.
Next morning, Luna and I were up at dawn and I struggled to make coffee while Luna trotted along beside me, happy. My husband is obsessed with obscure ultra light camping gear and survival stuff, so “making coffee” while camping has become an elusive puzzle. I was losing my temper, rummaging through the stuff in the truck, searching for any conceivable way to make a fire, when I saw the snow scraper/brush — that long bristly plastic brush we always keep in the car to get the snow and ice off in the winter…
Which could work to brush caked on s*** off a dog.
Which I did; while feeding her treats. And she was super happy the whole time.
And I knew — I just knew — I had done exactly the right thing this time.
And, as is typical in my life — not sure about yours — I got no accolades :) no thank yous :). In fact, as you may have surmised, there is perhaps an even more solid feeling from the young adults that their mom is a little wacky.
But we have a very happy and clean dog.
Anyway — onto this week:
This entire week needed me to float from event to event, in a state of utter jaw dropping amazement at times, working diligently in the background. Time and time again, there were moments where I saw God’s hand, making me smile, gently guiding me toward what I believe to be our shared purpose in this life (but please, don’t feel obliged) to create beauty out of chaos.