This week I contemplated diligence — and self esteem, confidence, and courage.
Our personalities, who we really are, how we are perceived, and our blind spots were on my mind all week, swirling around aimlessly — and loudly, apparently, as I was caught contemplating out loud about this by a runner who passed me on the trail early Sunday morning. We had a good laugh as she startled me and then kept on running.
The more I engage in life’s challenges, the healthier it seems my self esteem becomes. Whereas I fully understand that being startled on the trail out of an out loud contemplation could have left me knocking a few points off my self valuation, nothing of the sort occurred.
This did leave me more confused, though. I remained confused — this week I had cut my own hair, dealt with Canada Revenue Service for a total of I think 4 hours (side note — I don’t know who they hire but *wow* are they kind and helpful. I don’t enjoy bureaucratic stuff but this “ordeal” was simply tedious, not irritating), and a few other minor details that could easily have had a pretty negative cumulative effect.
Why, how, is my self esteem so healthy? Was I, am I, delusional? :)
As I was walking to church Sunday morning, post trail-surprise :) I listened to a lovely podcast called “Ologies” This episode was on personality psychology (definitely linking below) and just as I was about 2/3 of my way, Alie mentioned an article in Psychology Today by Dr. Neel Burton, MD called The Secret of Self Esteem
— I normally would skip over an article with that title, I think, so I feel extra lucky to have heard it this way…because Alie likes it so much that she read a bit out loud.
The tl;dr version of the article is that diligence — consistently doing good, kind, courageous acts that bravely live up to our ideals.